Thursday, June 07, 2012

No Matter What

I recorded this a little differently than the original version.



No matter what you are
I will always be with you
Doesn't matter what you do girl, oh girl with you
No matter what you do
I will always be around

Won't you tell me what you found girl, oh girl won't you
Knock down the old brick wall, and be a part of it all
Nothing to say, nothing to see, nothing to do

If you would give me all, as I would give it to you
Nothing would be, nothing would be, nothing would be

No matter where you go
There will always be a place
Can't you see in my face girl, oh girl don't you

Knock down the old brick wall, and be a part of it all
Nothing to say, nothing to see, nothing to do
If you would give me all, as I would give it to you
Nothing would be, nothing would be, nothing would be

No matter what you are
I will always be with you
Doesn't matter what you do girl, oh girl want you
Oh girl, you girl, want you
Oh girl, you girl, want you

Wednesday, June 06, 2012

The Truth About Don Siegelman



















Six years ago, the former Democratic Governor of Alabama, Don Siegelman, was sentenced to prison on a corruption charge. His defense was then, and continues to be now, that he was unfairly charged and convicted because of a political vendetta against him. Certain progressive voices have consistently believed Siegelman’s own self-serving spin, desperately wanting for the Governor to be vindicated. Overturning the charges would concede that the prosecution’s case was politically motivated. According to the narrative the Governor has consistently advanced, an innocent man was placed behind bars.

Earlier in the week, the Supreme Court of the United States refused to take up Siegelman’s appeal. Since being declared guilty, the former Democratic Governor, Lieutenant Governor, Secretary of State, and Attorney General of the Heart of Dixie filed a series of persistent appeals. Governor Siegelman is to be commended for reinventing himself, post-conviction. In serving as a martyr, he has achieved a kind of renown and popularity he never managed while in office. Many who have placed full faith in this netroots cause célèbre do not understand the real story.

Legal challenges aside, Don Siegelman would have otherwise been an uneventful one-term Governor. Methodically rising up the rungs of state politics, Siegelman began his slow climb the tried-and-true way. While enrolled in the University of Alabama in the late 1960’s, he was the Machine-backed candidate for Student Government Association President. Generations of future political talent had been groomed in this exact same fashion. While achieving his undergraduate degree, Siegelman was a member of the elite Delta Kappa Epsilon fraternity.

The Machine was a shadowy, manipulative, often malevolent institution that used intimidation and entrapment to secure victories for its favorite sons. Greek concerns and demands were paramount. Independent voices were deliberately ignored, locked out of decision making entirely. This system continued unimpeded until Joe Scarborough, former U.S. House Republican and current MSNBC host, helped to dismantle the Machine during his time at the Capstone.

Those who intended to make a career out of state and national politics began the process this way. Siegelman was groomed from a young age to achieve and hold high elective office. Famously ambitious, he never made much of a secret that his ultimate goal was the Governor’s Mansion in Montgomery. Siegelman was the consummate Democratic party insider. Those on the inside felt that the rising star should have taken the time to serve longer at each post he attained. They thought he ought to have been a better Attorney General or Secretary of State, but, invariably rolling their eyes as they said it, each noted the same thing. “Don wanted to be Governor.”

The Alabama Democratic Party has long been divided into two de facto partions. These are largely predicated on race, even today. The two only come together for the sake of expediency. The white Democratic Party is often criticized for being Republican-lite. The black Democratic Party can be less conservative, especially since its members usually are elected from minority-majority legislative districts created as a product of the Civil Rights Movement. Black or white, Siegelman made all the right connections inside the morass, favoritism, and cronyism contained within the Party. All he needed now to ascend to the highest office in the state was the right opportunity.

Siegelman’s chance arrived when he ran against Forrest “Fob” James, an unpopular incumbent who had once served in the same office twenty years before, that time as a Democrat. James had embarrassed himself multiple times, once famously remarking that he thought state government ought to be run as efficiently as a Waffle House. Few voters knew what the challenger stood for or even who he really was. They just wanted the Anti-Fob, someone who might make Alabama look a little less ignorant, cornpone, and uninformed.

The Mobile native’s sole term was marked by most observers as mediocre. He had run for office on a single-issue platform, promising to enact a lottery, the proceeds to be earmarked for college scholarships to be dispensed to deserving students. In truth, it was a carbon-copy of former Georgia Governor Zell Miller’s education lottery plan, enacted some years prior. In accordance with state law, the initiative first had to be voted on in a statewide referendum. Unlike in its Eastern neighbor, Alabama voted down a lottery. Having risked his entire political capital at the beginning of his term, the wind was effectively knocked from the Governor’s sails. Siegelman proved to have few other ideas.

He limped into a re-election bid against the man who would eventually unseat him, Republican U.S. Representative Bob Riley. The 2002 Gubernatorial Race proved incredibly close, and Siegelman eventually lost the county, Baldwin, that he needed most. At first, the county had been declared for him. A voting machine malfunction, later corrected, placed the winning tally in the column of his opponent. Unlike the 2000 Presidential Election, this despite a mere 3,000 vote deficit that cost Siegelman the race, a mass recount and obsessive legal maneuvering would not be forthcoming.

Siegelman had, honestly, not helped his case. The now lame-duck Democrat had even declared victory prematurely, in a dramatic news conference, before all the votes were counted. Whoever choreographed the media event decided that, prior to their father’s victory speech, both of the Governor’s children should wish him vocal congratulations, on camera, for the win. This gesture was classic Siegelman, arrogant, defiant, and ultimately powerless behind the bluster. It should be noted, however, that the Associated Press had also jumped the gun, declaring, for a time, the wrong winner on Election Night.  

This was the Don Siegelman I and millions of other Alabamians knew. When allegations surfaced that Siegelman had traded government favors for campaign donations when he was governor and lieutenant governor four year before, there was no public outcry. There was no love lost. It’s easy to be cynical about the politicians who inhabit the Alabama Capitol, a building housed on a parcel of land known as Goat Hill. In the same state that birthed George Wallace and a thousand other lesser names, those who pursue a career in state politics are often automatically assumed to be unfit stewards of the public trust.

On Tuesday, The Gadsden Times summarized the Governor’s predicament.

Regardless, it will be the final act in a tale that grew from a state corruption investigation to a national crusade, after Siegelman alleged that he was the victim of a plot hatched by Republican politicians and prosecutors, with Karl Rove as the ringleader, and various liberal groups looking for evidence of the GOP’s nefariousness took up his cause.
We’ve always viewed that stuff as a partisan sideshow from the core issue here: Did Siegelman “sell” [co-conspirator] Scrushy a seat on a state hospital regulatory board — an unpaid post that he’d held under three previous governors, both Democratic and Republican — in return for a $500,000 contribution to his failed state lottery campaign?

Siegelman was crafty enough to harness partisan anger to get himself off the hook. Despite his wholehearted embrace of the progressive blogosphere, multiple high courts have found sufficient grounds that his conviction should stand. In his twenty-six years in politics, the former Governor made significant enemies, and few in the state have much affection or regard for him. Indeed, they never did.

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Medical Update #4,000

After a successful camping trip, I resume today my busy schedule of doctor's visits. Thank you, readers, for being patient with me. Circumstances beyond my control at times keep me away from my writing. I take care to document these proceedings to show what life is like with a disability.

Later this morning I visit the Urologist. Something is very wrong with my bladder and has been steadily worsening for the past four years. The problem has kept the organ in a constant state of irritation. My appointment is meant to get to the bottom of the matter. When answers are often elusive, I pray for complete clarity. Rarely do I receive it.

I remind myself in this situation of an old man with a prostate problem. I've taken to sitting on the edges of a theater while watching a movie, so I don't have to crawl over everyone on my way to the bathroom. I sit in awkward positions so to not place too much pressure on the bladder. Specific, targeted tests will be run soon. I hope to avoid the most invasive one of all, which involves the insertion of a catheter. The very thought of that procedure makes me wince.

Time for some good news. The CPAP machine used to treat sleep apnea has really been helping. I've felt much more rested now than without it. The constant air pressure has opened up blocked nasal passages. Sleep apnea negatively affects the pituitary gland. The pituitary regulates testosterone level. With time, my body systems might reassert their natural balance and normality. I may also lose weight, which has been almost impossible when hormone levels are not as they should be.

I'd always had severe chronic health conditions before now, but 30 is when everything came to a head. As I briefly pause to reflect, several of these had their nexus years beforehand. They had been slowly building to a crescendo. When I entered my thirties, these symptoms worsened and presented themselves. I won't lie. It's been a struggle, and I've been in lots of pain. I am never well for long.

I am reminded of a story. My paternal Grandmother was very religious, being the daughter of a minister. She went from church to church, seeking a minister who might be able to heal her. While I consider faith healing to be a kind of quackery, I have trod my own path from specialist to specialist. A passage in the Gospel of Mark has always spoken to me.

One of the men in the crowd spoke up and said, "Teacher, I brought my son so you could heal him. He is possessed by an evil spirit that won't let him talk. And whenever this spirit seizes him, it throws him violently to the ground. Then he foams at the mouth and grinds his teeth and becomes rigid. So I asked your disciples to cast out the evil spirit, but they couldn't do it."
Jesus said to them, "You faithless people! How long must I be with you? How long must I put up with you? Bring the boy to me."
So they brought the boy. But when the evil spirit saw Jesus, it threw the child into a violent convulsion, and he fell to the ground, writhing and foaming at the mouth. "How long has this been happening?" Jesus asked the boy's father. He replied, "Since he was a little boy.
The spirit often throws him into the fire or into water, trying to kill him. Have mercy on us and help us, if you can." "What do you mean, 'If I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes."
Is it selfish of me to want to be healed by a force more powerful than modern medicine? I want resolute, definitive answers. Few ever arrive. And if this cup cannot be taken from me, God, help me find a way to cope. Recently, I read that our darkest moments are meant to ensure we do not forget to put our trust in the Almighty. If this is the case, help me understand it.

Monday, June 04, 2012

So Sad 'Bout Us



La la la la la la la

So sad about us
So sad about us
Sad that the news is out now
Sad, suppose we can't turn back now
Sad about us

So bad about us
So bad about us
Bad, never meant to break up
Bad, suppose we'll never make up
Bad about us

Apologies mean nothing
When the damage is done
But I can't switch off my loving
Like you can't switch off the sun

La la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la

So sad about us
So sad about us
Sad, never meant to break up
Sad, suppose we'll never make up
Sad about us

Sunday, June 03, 2012

YAF Camping Trip Pictures

The Friends Meeting of Washington YAF (Young Adult Friends) camping trip pictures.

Quote of the Week
















"Longevity conquers scandal every time."- Shelby Foote

Saturday, June 02, 2012

Saturday Video



I'd work very hard but I'm lazy
I can't take the pressure and it's starting to show
In my heart you know that it pains me
A life of leisure is no life you know

Waking up and getting up has never been easy,
Oh oh, I think you should know.
Waking up and getting up has never been easy,
Oh, oh, I think you should know.
Oh, oh, I think you should go.
Make a cup of tea, and put a record on.

I'd work very hard but I'm lazy
I've got a lot of songs but they're all in my head.
I'll get a guitar and a lover who pays me
If I can't be a star I won't get out of bed.

Waking up and getting up has never been easy,
Oh, oh, I think you should know.
Waking up and getting up has never been easy,
Oh, oh, I think you should know.
Oh, oh, I think you should go.
Make a cup of tea, and put a record on.

Waking up and getting up has never been easy,
Oh, oh, I think you should know.
Waking up and getting up has never been easy,
Oh, oh, I think you should know.
Oh, oh, I think you should go.
Make a cup of tea, and put a record on.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

A Slight Rant about Blogging for Pay

In a free content era, professional writers are increasingly squeezed. A dwindling number of outlets actually pay their providers. As a means of establishing a publication name, freelance writers have turned more and more to blog aggregators, whose primary means of achieving revenue is through ad content. These web syndicates dangle the promise of payment, but first provided one follows a series of exacting, exasperating steps. Beware of empty promises.

I have refused to act like a trained pony, even though doing so takes a certain amount of money out of my pocket. Suggested assignments by these outlets require hours of extra work. Interviewing business owners, local politicians, and important people takes a long while. Putting in the time pays one less than minimum wage, if broken down into earnings per hour. And with no guarantee of reimbursement beyond the initial $15 for taking on a complicated piece of work, what I receive is chump change. I resent being treated as a cash cow, with the quality/composition of my contributions valued much less than a formulaic business model.

Here, most of the money earned streams to the top. Those who make it easy for the company to make profit find a few peanuts thrown their way. But these are the exception, rather than the rule. Huffington Post, for example, continues to refuse to pay most of its writers. And yet, as if to show blatant evidence of this topsy-turvy world in which we inhabit, it has even won Pulitzer Prizes in the past couple of years. Long time journalists have been wooed away, wise enough to see the writing on the wall. More are soon to follow.

Long-standing periodicals like Newsweek and Time have begun to implode. Now that first-rate staff has flown the coop, the quality of both continues to decline. Newspapers have begun to transition to online editions, this to save money, though what is posted often seems rushed and amateur. My hometown newspaper The Birmingham News has made one series of cuts to staffing after another. Forced buyouts and decreased benefits, plus a decline in pay, is today's world. The al.com domain that shares the content of the newspapers of the three largest cities in the state is a long-delayed nod to the new online reality facing everyone.

In the meantime, each of us scratches out some livelihood, though the ethic of scarcity is in force. If this career field could be compared to a suckling pig, there are too many young in search of milk and not enough places for all of them to feed. In a race to the top, sharp elbows are often employed. The journos of the nation seek jobs that are peeling away day by day. Or, as the old Gershwin standard inquired, "Nice work if you can get it. And if you get it, won't you tell me how?"

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

For Tomorrow



He's a twentieth century boy
With his hands on the rails
Trying not to be sick again
And holding on for tomorrow

London ice cracks on a seamless line
He's hanging on for dear life
And so we hold each other tightly
And hold on for tomorrow, singing

La, la la l-la, la, la la, l-la l-la la-la-la
La, la la l-la, la, la la, l-la l-la la-la-la
La, la la l-la, la, la la, l-la l-la la-la-la
Holding on for tomorrow

She's a twentieth century girl
With her hands on the wheel
Trying not to be sick again
Seeing what she can borrow

London's so nice back in your seamless rhymes
But we're lost on the West way
So we hold each other tightly
And we can wait until tomorrow, singing

La, la la l-la, la, la la, l-la l-la la-la-la
La, la la l-la, la, la la, l-la l-la la-la-la
La, la la l-la, la, la la, l-la l-la la-la-la
Holding on for tomorrow

Camping Trip Planning

I'm working on a camping trip for Young Adult Friends this week. Pictures will follow and I'm sure they'll be gorgeous. Because the planning consuming lots of my time, I'll be posting a little lighter than normal for the next several days. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I will be in Shenandoah National Park, enjoying the company of others. Entries for the weekend days will be queued up to automatically post ahead of time.

Each of us has really pulled together to make this trip happen. I'm very grateful that Friends are taking this seriously. If I have a selfish desire, it is that all who attend would feel the presence of God strongly. Past conferences, especially those specifically designed towards young adults have felt Spiritually powerful. We will have fun, but will also pause for Worship and for Worship Sharing.

If I feel led, I'll write a little about it.

Monday, May 28, 2012

A Pacifist's Thoughts on Memorial Day


On this Memorial Day, I take my traditional, tried-and-true, consistently conflicted position. A Quaker and a pacifist, I am never sure how to commemorate military service. Many Friends find today an incredibly difficult, awkward holiday, especially when combined with jingoistic platitudes about glory and honor. Ours has been a minority view for years.

The holiday was originally known as Decoration Day, and sought to honor the dead of the Civil War. Today I aim for the magnanimous. I would like to believe, as Abraham Lincoln himself noted in the Gettysburg Address, that our dead in any conflict shall not have died in vain. In my more judgmental moments, however, I believe that the ultimate sacrifice of one’s life is foolish and immoral. In my best moments, I can empathize with the severe belief in duty and devotion that spurred men on to pick up a gun.

In school, I excelled in history. As part of my studies, I read accounts of great battles, notable generals, and deft military maneuvers. A skillful retelling of warfare holds the interest of its audience well. Battle narratives often sensationalize human struggle. The fact that others risked life and limb only adds to the fascination and engagement of the reader. Still, I’m supposed to find war deplorable, an ancient, shameful practice of barbarism and violence regrettably not yet obsolete. And yet, today I find once again that there is something irresistibly compelling about the very idea of armed conflicted.

As is true with many Americans, I find something very fascinating, but also heavily tragic about the Civil War. Today, those who served in combat will be rededicated once again, in remembrance of their toil and struggle. Following the war’s most decisive battle, Confederate and Union veterans met on the battlefield of Gettysburg every Memorial Day to commemorate the Herculean human struggle of both sides. This year, they come together again for 145th time.

There is something more to war than maneuvers and strategy, iron and blood. The hopes of an entire people can be caught up in a valiant struggle, one waged against all odds. History is written by the victors, but it is remembered by the losers.  William Faulkner, in a 1948 book entitled Intruder in the Dust, wrote in part about the Lost Cause of the Confederacy. It is a concept that seems incomprehensible to those not reared in the South.   

For every Southern boy fourteen years old, not once but whenever he wants it, there is the instant when it's still not yet two o'clock on that July afternoon in 1863…Maybe this time with all this much to lose than all this much to gain: Pennsylvania, Maryland, the world, the golden dome of Washington itself to crown with desperate and unbelievable victory the desperate gamble, the cast made two years ago.

The romanticism inherent in this description only makes sense when it is a byproduct of the humiliated and vanquished. Stark odds against the continued persistence and longevity of the Confederacy existed from the outset. It would make sense, then, that the war is a footnote outside the rebellious states and an everlasting topic of cultural fascination in Dixie. A defeated people built a mythology around themselves, to deflect the humiliation and destruction left behind.

150 years later, Faulkner’s description of a defiant, unbowed, belligerent region was passed down to me and for many I knew. This persistent legacy has never completely died out. A belief in state’s rights, one that challenges perceived meddling by the Federal Government is still a Southern tradition. Former Republican Presidential candidate and Texas Governor Rick Perry invoked the specter of secession under this same persistent regional mentality.   

Our Civil War, or for that matter, any Civil War holds a special poignancy for its country of origin. Other wars our nation fought involved mostly foreign participants, often Europeans. Here, Americans engaged in hand-to-hand conflict with their countrymen, giving rise to a thousand ironies great and small. When taking the field with divided loyalties from the beginning, it’s more difficult to resort to dehumanizing propaganda. When it is we who are across battle lines from each other, vilifying one’s enemy is more complicated. Siblings, cousins, fathers, and sons all took up arms against each other.

The United States in the late 19th Century was an extremely religious nation. North and South both used Old Testament language to justify this bloody conflict. The Union and the rebelling South believed that they were the Israel of ancient days, their cause vindicated by a vengeful God.  The Almighty would forcibly destroy the idolatrous invaders, in the minds of the South, and force out the treasonous secessionists, in the minds of the North. In Lincoln’s words, given a month before the formal surrender of the South, the prayers of neither were answered.

I return to the meaning of Memorial Day. War may be hell, but it has existed since the dawn of humankind. Why does it remain so persistent, with any number of loyal believers? When will we rid ourselves of the need for what I and others see as senseless slaughter and needless suffering? Following the battle of Fredericksburg, Confederate General Robert E. Lee summarized well the conflicting emotions I experience every holiday in which we place a singular focus on armed conflict. “It is well that war is so terrible,” Lee wrote, “otherwise we would grow too fond of it.”      

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Quote of the Week


"Why don't they pass a constitutional amendment prohibiting anybody from learning anything? If it works as well as prohibition did, in five years Americans would be the smartest race of people on Earth.”- Will Rogers

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Saturday Video



Weed and bach and bach a monaural
Weed and bach and bach a low

Gotta do get and get it over.
Gotta do get and get a low.

Diggy diggy da mona mon
Diggy diggy da mona mon
Diggy diggy da mona mon
Oh I
Diggy diggy da mona mon

Oh I

Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come

Well, western boys and highs mow, oh no.
Ah western boys and highs a low.

Gotta do get and got it all over.
Gotta do get and get it and get it alone.

Diggy diggy da mona mon
Diggy diggy da mona mon
Diggy diggy da mona mon
Oh I
Diggy diggy da mona mon

Oh I

Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come

Well westen bach and bach a mona roll.
Westen bach and bach a low.

God, do you get and gotted it over.
and get it and gotten it and got it alone.

Diggy diggy da mona mon
Diggy diggy da mona mon
Diggy diggy da mona mon
Oh I
Diggy diggy da mona mon

Oh I

Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, come a come a come
Say dare I, coma a come a come
A come a come a come a cause

Friday, May 25, 2012

Happy Memorial Day Weekend


It's summertime and the living is easy
The fish are jumping and the cotton is high
Your daddy's rich and your mama's good looking
Won't you hush, pretty baby, don't you cry

One of these mornings you're going to wake up singing
Then you're going to spread your wings and take to the sky
But till that morning ain't nothing, nothing going to harm you
With your mommy and daddy there standing by

It's summertime and the living is easy
The fish are jumping and the cotton is high
Your daddy's rich and your mama's good looking
Would you hush, pretty baby, don't you cry

________________

Words and Music by George Gershwin, Du Bose Heyward, Dorothy Heyward, Ira Gershwin

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Radical Acceptance: When an Attender is a Sex Offender


At the end of last year, a man began arriving every First Day at our Meeting. I noticed him because he kept plain dress. As is true with many houses of worship these days, the preferred style of clothing for most of us is casual. The tall, bearded man I saw downstairs prior to First Hour was clad in white shirt, black pants, and suspenders. He appeared deeply uncomfortable, shuffling back and forth uneasily.

Because my introversion usually keeps me anxious around people, I made an extra effort to be friendly. He stared at me as though unsure of what to do with the gesture. I thought nothing of it and made my way upstairs to Meeting for Worship, like usual. Perhaps he was a visitor from another Meeting. We have so many, after all. Washington, DC, is a haven for tourists and a few of them are traveling Quakers.

The mysterious man turned out to be a registered sex offender. He had reached out to our Meeting some weeks before via an old-fashioned letter in the mail. Sad to say, we’d displaced his correspondence for a few weeks, the first of many mistakes later to follow. In the letter, he explained his situation and circumstances. He was to be released in a few days from prison after a lengthy sentence for molesting a child.

He found Quakers because of a Conservative Friends Meeting in his place of incarceration. Their prison ministry had reached out to him. With the zeal of the new convert, he had become a Friend, idealizing his new found faith as many do in the beginning. Eager to start a new life, he followed the letter of the law to a T, desirous to follow the many requirements and restrictions placed upon all registered sex offenders.

His correspondence did not hide the nature of his crime. A native of the area, finally returning home, he wished to Worship with us. Due to his conviction, correspondence from his parole officer was a mandatory part of the process. Since nothing quite like this had ever been taken on by the Meeting, no one was sure how it ought to proceed.

Two Meeting committees were assigned an exceeding delicate task. Quaker process is slow as molasses in the best of circumstances, but this matter was sensitive and potentially toxic, especially if it got out of hand. The man met frequently with our Personal Aid committee for several weeks. Later, Healing & Reconciliation was incorporated into the process. Deliberation followed deliberation. Two months passed.

Those on committees contributed lots of extra time, establishing a support committee alongside other efforts. Each of these was conscious of a need to control the news and present it in a responsible, sober fashion. This man’s past was a liability, and not just for strictly legal reasons. A very different letter through the mail shared the news with the Meeting, urging discretion. Members and regular attenders were requested to keep the words of the letter to themselves. However, as Robert Burns wrote, the best laid plans oft go awry. And awry was a generous word to use under the circumstances.

The parents went into full out panic mode. Why had they not been told of this man’s presence in the Meeting until he had been actively attending for two months? What if he stalked their children? Skittish, frightened parents expressed anxiety after anxiety. What was thought to have been handled sufficiently by two committees spilled out beyond its intended borders. Once the cat was out of the bag, hurt, fear, and pain were on full display.

Meetings can be fast asleep in matters such as these. Business placed before us must season, we say, and so we adopt a deliberative approach. In emotionally intense situations, we have no choice but to act swiftly and firmly. In this setting, insistence upon strict secrecy meant that multiple, conflicting versions of the truth leaked out, much like a giant version of the game Telephone.

It was discovered that two regular attenders had also been convicted of child sexual abuse. One of them had once even served as a clerk of a committee. A child safety task force was hastily formed. Alongside it, a punitive system of strict supervision and boundaries not to be crossed was eventually adopted to apply to sex offenders. In part, it was drafted to comfort worried parents. In reality, it did not begin to address the multiplicity of issues that this crisis situation had brought forth.

The input and involvement of the most vulnerable was overshadowed by worst case scenario. Parents will sometimes lose all sense of perspective when their own offspring is concerned. The stridency of discourse omitted essential considerations.

Basic protection aside, children need to be taught to speak up on the own behalf. They must be told to assert their own rights as individuals. Should they be left alone in a room with an adult who is not a RE teacher, for example, they should vocalize their discomfort and tell other adults. No amount of punishing the offender in a preemptive fashion will stop the possibility. Legalistic language and adopted protocol is purely a panacea. Absolute security simply does not exist.

I’m adamant about this debate for a very specific reason. For the past several months, I’ve written in great detail about a part of my own early life. Or, to put it another way, I was molested because I had been taught to do exactly what other adults told me to do. My parents instructed me that, out of respect, I ought to have obedience and respect for my elders. When an older man directed me to do exactly as he said, I obeyed. Though what I was asked to do felt uncomfortable and somehow wrong, I believed that, as someone my parent’s age, he knew best. Then only a child, this was all that I knew.

In the meantime, the man whose intended presence among us had sparked the firestorm withdrew his intention to join us. The vituperative nature of criticism led him to believe that he was unwanted. Among some, but not all, I believe that he was. Many Friends felt as though their effort to accommodate him in fellowship had failed. The process had been emotionally draining for almost everyone.

The Meeting continues to deal with the fallout. Three listening sessions have been scheduled. A majority of voices have resolved to allow a sex offender to Worship with us, albeit with severe strings attached. Yet, questions remain. How will we handle something like this in the future? How can we confront a topic that is severely verboten for many, especially for survivors? To me, the truth lies in our willingness to wake from our slumber.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

My Thoughts Exactly

Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood


Baby, do you understand me now?
Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive
can always be an angel
When things go wrong I seem to be bad.

'Cause I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And sometimes it seems that,
all I have to do is worry
And then you're bound to see my other side

I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

If I seem edgy, I want you to know,
That I never mean to take it out on you
Life has its problems, and I get my share,
And that's one thing I never mean to do

Cause I love you,
Oh,

Oh, oh, oh, baby - don't you know I'm human
Have flaws like any other one
Sometimes I find myself long regretting
Some foolish thing, some little sinful thing I've done

I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good

Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Life



Editor's Note: This is the story of everyone past the age of 30.

Grown-up

Was it for this I uttered prayers,
And sobbed and cursed and kicked the stairs,
That now, domestic as a plate,
I should retire at half-past eight?

-Edna St. Vincent Millay

Monday, May 21, 2012

Another Lost Generation


We may well be another lost generation. The first Lost Generation struggled through a World War in Europe only to feel disillusioned and uncertain for the future. Soldiers, ambulance drivers, and nurses all returned to a very changed country. The lost generation I inhabit has had to live in the shadows of a new American reality. No longer can hard work and ingenuity alone provide a stable paycheck or substantial livelihood for anyone. What passes for the American dream is a supreme fiction.

The fortunate in this age are well-connected and lucky enough to not slip through the cracks. Those with jobs either possess the exact skills and precise training to suit fickle employers, or they find themselves consigned to occupational Purgatory. In a buyer's market, those hiring can afford to wait for the perfect fit in every way, shape, and fashion. Whether they attended a liberal arts college or a state school, graduated with honors or not, few applicants find their skills in demand.

Often they have had to borrow money from parents to stay afloat. Returning home to the womb for a few tours of duty, also known as their parent’s house is all too uncommon. We've been sold a bill of goods. Everything we were told was factual and true is totally wrong.

To best illustrate my point, I thought I might now tell the stories of a few of my friends. Each is in his or her late 20’s into the early 30’s and lives in Washington, DC. Though economists have told us that we are in recovery, whatever that means, it surely doesn’t feel like it to us. We’ve had to be creative in marketing ourselves to employers who can afford to be picky.

We’ve had to accept the subtle, but essential details that mean the difference between employment and unemployment. It’s humbling, to say the least to learn how worthless our educational training, resumes, and prior work experience can be. Twisting ourselves into pretzels for the sake of fitting into a narrowly defined skill set might as well be our stock in trade. When we’ve finally found employment, we’ve often taken jobs completely at odds with the work to which we assumed we would give our lives. We had absolutely no say in the matter.

One of my friends was hired by a non-profit right out of college. She enjoyed the work immensely, but knew her tenure was time-limited from the beginning. Contract work has become more and more prevalent with employers who wish to keep costs down. She spent the next eighteen months out of work, diligently searching for a job.

Employment finally arrived in the form of a Federal Government job in the same field as before. However, her new employer worked exclusively in policy, a complicated profession, to say the least, one she had never before even contemplated. On-the-job training was a necessity and, to her, the experience reminded her of cramming for the toughest examination she’d ever taken in her life.

Another friend spent about the same length of time on the unemployment rolls. He, too, found a job with the Federal Government, the only offer he was given. Within a few months of working there, he discovered that upper level management was highly incompetent and the agency itself was badly run. The institutionalized dysfunction influenced hiring practices and compromised morale. His co-workers were not adequately vetted before starting work and routinely were entirely unsuited for the nature of the work.

He dealt with all of it as long as possible, and then tendered his resignation three weeks ago. Once again unemployed, he has two months’ worth of savings to tide him over until he begins another one. Because he voluntarily resigned, unemployment compensation was flatly denied. He has filed an appeal and waits nervously for a decision.

Still another friend graduated after four years from a prestigious university, one with the most expensive tuition in the country. After periods of chronic underemployment, she has now achieved full-time work, but with severe strings attached. Her wages are low, granting her the ability to survive, though without the income she would really prefer. She spends everything she makes and laments the ability to be unable to save for a rainy day. Lacking health insurance, she worries about potential financial catastrophe should she need emergency medical treatment someday.

She’s been looking in frustration for another career for two months, having interviewed for two or three openings. Nothing seem to pan out in the end, a common denominator with the people in each of these stories. Each opening for which she obtains an interview draws a minimum of 100 applicants, most of whom have the identical qualifications she does. The odds are not exactly in her favor. I could tell at least ten more stories that follow the same basic frustrating trajectory.

Each of the persons mentioned above is highly qualified, highly educated, and struggling mightily to stay afloat. Place of origin does make a difference. Compounding the problem is that even in the best of times, Washington, DC, is an expensive place to live. Though booming in some sectors, our Nation’s Capital can be a stressful place for ambitious young adults.

Though a certain hyper-competitive quality is attached to the city by its very nature, employment opportunities nonetheless once existed in sufficient quantity. Now they do not. Regardless of how motivated and driven job seekers may be, they rapidly learn two particular truisms: 1. patience is a virtue and 2. there is no such thing as fair. For those in partnered relationships, the dynamics are slightly different, but related to those of singles. Often only one person holds down full-time work and functions as the primary breadwinner.

With heterosexual couples, the traditional gendered arrangement of a primary male breadwinner frequently reversed because of sheer necessity. Without the existence of dual incomes, sexism aside, the monetary imbalance can lead to tension within a relationship; one person often has to make a barely adequate inflow stretch for two. Should the sole source of money lose his or her job, a disaster would be left in its wake. 

What is often not discussed is that the Great Recession only exacerbated existing trends. For a decade or more before 2007, underemployment was the frequent lot of entry level workers who had just left college. Now, if recently published statistics are to be believed, 1 in 2 recent college graduates can expect to be unemployed upon entering the workforce. Living with one’s parents past college was once considered embarrassing and shameful: a denial of formal adulthood. The stigma may still be in place, but even achievers and hard workers have had to return to the nest when money is tight.

Allow me to make a sharp distinction. I am, of course, writing about a very particular group of people. All are white, each has been raised in middle class households, and each has also graduated from college with good grades. I imagine the climate is even worse for those who don’t have a certain amount of financial support, parental support, and privilege to back it up. For those without the good fortune of these material advantages, the future is even more uncertain, confusing, and difficult. Across the country, young men and women have similar stories to tell. No one knows how much longer we will exist in a state of fiduciary limbo.

Politicians promise recovery, but no one yet has provided a coherent plan. Recent Congressional efforts to reduce if not altogether eliminate financial aid debt will help, but they don’t address the primary problem. Where are the jobs? The forthcoming Presidential election will swing to a large extent on that very issue.

Until change comes to America, young adults will be unable to invest in their country. Until then, we sit and wait, soldiering along because we have no choice but to accept a recession era lifestyle. We’re surprisingly far less aimless and directionless than often believed. Our needs will be surprisingly well met and our distress will be soothed by the simplest of acts; we want work and we want to feel worthwhile and productive.

We are the future leaders of this country, but unless we can get a firm toe-hold with our foot in the door, we aren’t doing anyone much good. One single campaign issue unifies us together, regardless of where we call home. When is it our turn to begin building a future?

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Lotta Love



La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
Ooh, Ooh,

It's gonna take a lotta love
To change the way things are
It's gonna take a lotta love
Or we won't get too far

So if you look in my direction
And we don't see eye to eye
My heart needs protection and so do I

It's gonna take a lotta love
To get us thru the night
It's gonna take a lotta love
To make things work out right

So if you are there waitin'
I hope you show up soon,
'Cause my head needs relatin' not solitude

Gotta lotta love
Gotta lotta love
La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
Ooh, Ooh

It's gonna take a lotta love
To change the way we are
It's gonna take a lotta love
Or we won't get too far.

It's gonna take a lotta love
To change the way we are
It's gonna take a lotta love
Or we won't get too far
Or we won't get too far