Sunday, January 04, 2009

Re-Evalution Time

This has, to put it lightly, been one of the worst weeks of my life. I'm going to try to see if I can get any sleep at all tonight and then make a final decision on Monday.

I've come to the conclusion that I simply may not able to be tolerate total washout (removal of all medications) and be unable to complete the first protocol. Have no fear. There is another trial in which I can participate---it'd be taking a medication by pill form for eight weeks. Half the time will be placebo and half the time will be active agent. I mean to do this after the first protocol for which I was scheduled, meaning my time here will probably be reduced by two months if I determine that I simply can't go through the ketamine trial.

Thanks to all who have expressed concern.


FranIAm said...

Oh dear Kevin... prayers for you always.

Gail said...

Hi Kevin-
You know yourself best. If it's not for you? So-be-it.
I have every confidence that you will make the right decision at this juncture.

Love Gail,

PENolan said...

If you need someone to come bust you out, I'm only a quick drive away. I even have a car and gas money.
Gail is right - you know yourself best.
Big Hugs

Suzi Riot said...

CK: I'm so sorry for what you're dealing with and I hope you find a solution very soon.

I'm also very sorry that a different Suzi has been as ass to you. Your friend PENolan kindly left a comment in my blog explaining the situation. I can't believe that someone is out their tarnishing my good reputation! :)

But I'm also disappointed that you have not yet acknowledged the mistaken identity, even having removed me from your blogroll. It sucks being blamed for somebody else's asshattery. I've never been involved in any of these silly blogger arguments and most of my readers and blog buddies know me to be foul-mouthed but never unkind, insulting, or combative with other bloggers. I've always enjoyed your contribution to discussions on my blog and others so I hope you'll come back.

Best of luck with your health and I hope you get some sleep.

Utah Savage said...

Kevin, perhaps lack of sleep is making everything seem unbearable. That and the alcoholics. But you've spent so much time there, I worry that if you give up, you'll feel regret. Miss that unknown possible relief that might change everything.

But it is of course your decision to make.

And I do know Suzi Riot would never intentionally hurt or ridicule or dismiss anyone. If she says it wasn't her, I think you should believe her.